Summer '09

Well, school tomorrow. It's really only an orientation...but it's a long one AND I have an exam at the end. I'm entering senior year and I have to say...

I'M SCARED OUT OF MY FREKIN' MIND.

It's awkward and lonely because I have to spend all my time studying by myself. I don't have any Christian nursing friends at school. I won't be able to see my partners in Christ as much as I would like. Oh well Emil, man up.

I know you guys will know I'm still alive and will be praying for me. I'm doing the same for you . The memories I made with my brothers and sisters in Christ this summer will keep me going for the next 4 months. I pray I glorify God and make you guys proud.

If you wanna know my schedule its M-F. 6am-5pm school, Gym (hopefully) Review, sleep. Peace out. C'yall later. Ninja Mode on.

Lonewulf

I remember back in the day I used the term 'Lonewulf' a lot. I guess one things that has evolved from my youth is that I don't mind being around people as much as I used to. I still would prefer to do things alone... but friends are welcome (most of the time).

You just gotta find me first.

~One Love, one God, one Way.

Pssssst...

At the library again. I finished my lesson but have yet to review it. I'm getting nervous about teaching again. I think I annoyed the heck out of the person sitting next to me because after finishing my lesson, I was playing tower of defense games on www.newgrounds.com.

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/331128

All my incessant clicking probably added to the distractions as I could see in the reflection of a window that she was looking around to see what was making the clicks.

Also, apparently I look like a little boy :(

Wussup?

Swimming and Studying with Angie, Krisilyn, and Rex.

Good stuff. Started workin' on my lesson for the VBFM peoples. Man, I haven't taught a group in a while. Praise God for using a weak person like me. Let's all pray the His word will speak through me and I don't make it heresy park.

What did everyone else do today? I know Mitch cleaned and went to sleep, Aaron and Billy were reading 1 Corinthians, and Jason was studying computer scripts.

How bout you?

My new hiding place :) You guys should come along, its just a 45 minute drive from where I live. They're open from 6am-midnight everyday! Study Study Study, and they have awesome drinks and treats.

New Blog

Opening a new blog. Check it out at http://www.animemilio.blogspot.com.

Untitled

I just remembered I have a blog. I still don't know what to put in here because I don't think anyone cares about what I write. Well, I have some free time so here I go. I'm gonna try to type whatever comes to mind and see where it leads me. Crap, here it goes.

I learned Rex was actually 16 instead of 14. That made me sad.

There are times that I just wanna run as hard as I can, but it's never a good time...like I'm about to go to sleep, or I'm driving.

Sometimes I feel awkward.

I'm solar powered. The second the sun goes down so does my energy level.

It has been said I sleep like a middle/elementary schooler. I think I obviously get more sleep then those guys.

I have a really hard time approaching old friends.

I'm not good at stuff that a lot of people think I'm good at. Well, I guess that's relative to whoever.

I like to pretend I'm smart. A lot of people fall for it. I have decent knowledge and I'm not as smart as I sound.

Ocean City at 5:30am looks like a zombie movie.

I saw where the water meets the sky.

I know a lot of people that don't know me.

I miss people.

I'm broke but I have money.

I'm scared of teaching. I volunteered to do a lesson this week.

Sometimes, I feel lonely when I'm with groups of people.

Sometimes I act a certain way because it fits the situation even when I don't feel the way. For example, if in a certain situation I think the common person would be sad, I act sad even though inside I'm as happy as a button on the inside.

Nothing really gets me angry. I think angry thoughts but not in an angry way...Like i think "If I were angry, what would I be thinking?"

I continually pray in my head for humbleness... sometimes i get too humble and cross into self-loathing.

I'm trying my hardest but I'm lazy.

I don't like the idea of people getting attached to me because I tend to disappear and I think that might just make them sad.

Only a select few have a place in my heart. The rest I still love with the love of Christ though.

I'm going to sleep...because it's past my bedtime. 10:00pm :).